but then i forgot to post it. so here it is. basically it’s just an extended text from my Instagram post.
one year anniversary of the most memorable Labour Day in my life.
but the real labour was on the day after, after i *smartly* refused painkillers when i first got sent to the hospital; well, that was just one in a series of bad decisions i made last year.
another bad decision was to play badminton, which is quite laborious, on the day dedicated to NOT perform any labour. 🏸
i very briefly contemplated covering the scars with tattoos but nah. visible scars are to serve as reminders i guess. 🤷🏻♀️
today i can laugh about it because of how outrageous it was; as with most of the other poor choices.
quoting Marcus Aurelius in Meditations:
“‘Unhappy am I because this has happened to me.’ — Not so, but happy am I, though this has happened to me, because I continue free from pain, neither crushed by the present nor fearing the future.” #wowintellectual
that’s the level of tranquility that i’m still working towards. 💩
🌰 in a nutshell : i’ve accepted that my body would not recover to 100%. it’s probably gonna be a maximum of 95%. currently? maybe like 87%.
🦾: i cannot exert strength for too long, so, carrying groceries and writing for a long time sucks sometimes. i need a surgery sometime soon to remove the metal things. hopefully hospitals could take in non-corona patients soon. and then hopefully things will be better.
🦿: 70% of the time, i don’t remember that the leg was injured. the surgeon hit a nerve while operating so my right shin has been numb since October but…who even needs to feel something at that spot?? 😂 so im okay.
once again, i wanna thank everyone who helped made my life after the accident more bearable. i read that sometimes it’s not the patients who suffer, but the caretakers (though it referred to dementia patients, but i think it’s generally true). nurses are my new heroes. except the one who merciless cut off my beautiful splint/bandage/that thing on my arm. 😢
and yes, i’d play badminton again the second i’m allowed to. #tryagainbetternexttime 🤗
PS: i think i’m a little ambidextrous now???