First and foremost

Hi, this post opens the blog officially, so this is a virtual opening ceremony!

Damn do I not like myself; it took me more than a month to finally write the first bloody post on this site…procrastination rocks!

The initial idea of this blog is actually for it to be more philosophical but screw it, I’ll just write whatever I desire. As I also plan to delete my Facebook account in the (hopefully near) future, this would be a platform for me to bitch about things and share what I’m currently up to in my life.

Look at that bloody high ego. Who the deuce even cares about my life and what I have to say about things? Yeah I know, that’s why I don’t really like myself. It’s a pretty weird statement to make and I guess I should elaborate on it. Basically, I have been reading about stoicism a lot, because I am SO done with conventional faiths (sorry to a lot of you people).

I read a quote that went something like: “I know myself too well to like myself.” WOW, right. Yeah I don’t really like myself anymore, I wish that I was a better person than what I convey. I recently learnt about the Japanese concept of tatemae and honne. In a nutshell, tatemae means how people see you on the surface; whereas honne is what truly is in you. I suspect that a lot of Japanese don’t like their honnes too.

Even so, I am a normal human being who craves to be liked, so nope, I would not expose the dark sides of me so soon.  *evil grin*

So, welcome to my blog, where I write things in mostly English that might make you laugh/angry/cry/whatever.

Also, please like me for as long as you could!

You might not agree with my mode of thinking but that’s what this blog is for anyway, inspiring intellectual arguments so we can all advance metaphysically.

Please feel free to comment anything as I do appreciate constructive feedbacks! My grammars and language use are not perfect so yeah thank you in advance for pointing my errors out. 🙂

Yours truly,

Wei Yen

Puchong, MALAYSIA

Sunday. Puchong, Malaysia. HOTTTTT

ive been home since Tuesday and it has been a hectic few days meeting up with people. i barely had time for myself so it’s nice to spend a chill Sunday home. home has changed so much. the air sucks and i’m having a constant allergy reaction. 

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sexuality isn’t black and white anymore. asexuality should deserve some more attention too though

about a fake doctor that seems to have gone to painful lengths to literally forge his career

Sunday. Aachen. SUNny DAY.

in a week i wouldn’t be here anymore! haven’t had much time to myself in the past week because of parties (yeah, exams isn’t even over yet) and im doing an intensive French course that ends on Tuesday with a test. then another test on Thursday and i’ll be gone..for about four weeks.

SKIMMED

curious as to what got nominated in this year’s Oscars which is happening in a few hours‽ only watched The Incredibles 2 so im rooting for that

 

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there’s a Chrome extension that would help you learn a new foreign language

surprised to see the Malaysian flag on the list of countries where college is free. haha. i didnt know that. because it doesn’t tell the full story. anyway, why is college in the USA so expensive??‽!!!!!! [comic]

i might write “The Shameless Cowboy’s Runaway Wife”, a romance novel

Saturday. Aachen. Windy af

oh ive been in my room for more than 24 hours now; it’s so windy since last night, i could hear my door shaking. also, im trying to learn as much programming as i can for an upcoming test on Wednesday. im so done with studying so im winding down with some interesting-looking articles (also drank a beer). i think i haven’t spoken a word in the past 24 hours too haha. cool.

SKIMMED

YouTube channels to learn new skills

films to watch when you’re alone on Valentine’s Day. none of the title sounds interesting to me lol

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wow the woman figure skating Winter Olympic champion apparently didn’t drink water during the Olympics to maintain weight???? PS: i was rooting for her teammate, pffft

A Collection of Heartbreak Quotes by Yours Truly

For when you are sad because of this emotion called LOVE


  1. That part of my heart that belongs to you might shrink in the future; but it will always be there.

  2. In life, you’ll have love stories. Most of them would be sad stories, but you only need one happy story. I used to think that we could be a happy love story.

  3. Humans and heartbreaks, a package; Sometimes we, be gladly damaged.

  4. I’m not sure why is my body still intact when I feel that I’ve broken into a million pieces.

  5. It’s not easy. But darling, I could never rescue you.

  6. The piercing silence accentuates my loneliness.

  7. The longest distance might be me caring about you but not daring to let you know.

  8. Just thinking of you again. How are you?

  9. Oh a heartbreak, I don’t need this reminder that I can love.

  10. It hurts that, then, it would be as if we’ve never met each other.

  11. When talking to people whom I’ve just met, I still refer to you as “one of my friends”.

  12. Have you ever felt so hurt that you had to physically rub your heart to relieve the pain? I have.

  13. 睡觉时不敢靠着左侧睡,很怕这样就压碎了心,就这样死了。

  14. 我到底要等到什么时候才能名正言顺地爱着一个人啊

  15. I just wish that I walked deeper into your heart, as deep as where you walked into mine.

This post is updated as often as the author feels sad too and manages to string together words to convey her feelings. So yeah, I didn’t copy any of these from nowhere (I meant “somewhere”) and if there were similarities with something you’ve read, it must be coincidental. I bloody swear.
UPDATE: the author didn’t know it was possible; but she realised that it is possible to no longer feel some of the things mentioned before and so she deems it fit to remove quotes that are no longer relatable to herself. Maybe one day there wouldn’t be a quote left. That would be a happy ending. Yeah, the happy ending is a blank post.

Thursday. Aachen. Tired.

i have an exam tomorrow and it’s my first one since forever. im doing a subject that could be loosely translated to “Measurement Technology” where we basically study about measuring things. it’s a huge pain in the ass but is pretty doable even with my meagre German because we are allowed to bring in a cheat sheet. i might still fuck things up but hey, it might be a great welcome/warm up back to the academics life. im pretty tired so i thought of doing some light reading before heading to bed early tonight. having marijuana tea (no THC content though) to calm myself down; definitely enjoying the night

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all the reasons to write. really. great list

why people ghost. doesn’t answer my questions but i think im pretty much over my own issues 

so some DNA tests wrecked havoc in a family. i would do a test like that to know more about my ancestry back in China but i guess it’s a little hard for now as these technologies aren’t as well-developed and things may not be as extensively recorded in Asia???