First and foremost

Hi, this post opens the blog officially, so this is a virtual opening ceremony!

Damn do I not like myself; it took me more than a month to finally write the first bloody post on this site…procrastination rocks!

The initial idea of this blog is actually for it to be more philosophical but screw it, I’ll just write whatever I desire. As I also plan to delete my Facebook account in the (hopefully near) future, this would be a platform for me to bitch about things and share what I’m currently up to in my life.

Look at that bloody high ego. Who the deuce even cares about my life and what I have to say about things? Yeah I know, that’s why I don’t really like myself. It’s a pretty weird statement to make and I guess I should elaborate on it. Basically, I have been reading about stoicism a lot, because I am SO done with conventional faiths (sorry to a lot of you people).

I read a quote that went something like: “I know myself too well to like myself.” WOW, right. Yeah I don’t really like myself anymore, I wish that I was a better person than what I convey. I recently learnt about the Japanese concept of tatemae and honne. In a nutshell, tatemae means how people see you on the surface; whereas honne is what truly is in you. I suspect that a lot of Japanese don’t like their honnes too.

Even so, I am a normal human being who craves to be liked, so nope, I would not expose the dark sides of me so soon.  *evil grin*

So, welcome to my blog, where I write things in mostly English that might make you laugh/angry/cry/whatever.

Also, please like me for as long as you could!

You might not agree with my mode of thinking but that’s what this blog is for anyway, inspiring intellectual arguments so we can all advance metaphysically.

Please feel free to comment anything as I do appreciate constructive feedbacks! My grammars and language use are not perfect so yeah thank you in advance for pointing my errors out. 🙂

Yours truly,

Wei Yen

Puchong, MALAYSIA

turning through

This feeling of uncalmness,

i-don’t-feel-like-myself-ness;

is threatening to demolish my fortress,

the one of self-dependent toughness.

Negativity-spreading is my new big thing,

perhaps i need a new fling;

no, really it’s not good timing,

can’t risk what it may bring.

Stop, please stop,

i think i’m gonna pop,

what’s it like at the top,

do i still have a shot

I am so filled with ruth,

i need help is the truth,

but to look for people who could soothe,

i’m not sure if it’s a good move.

I thought i’ve became stronger,

much less vulnerable,

yet in fact i am still incapable

to bear the fruit of my labour.

Sunday. Puchong, Malaysia. HOTTTTT

ive been home since Tuesday and it has been a hectic few days meeting up with people. i barely had time for myself so it’s nice to spend a chill Sunday home. home has changed so much. the air sucks and i’m having a constant allergy reaction. 

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sexuality isn’t black and white anymore. asexuality should deserve some more attention too though

about a fake doctor that seems to have gone to painful lengths to literally forge his career

Sunday. Aachen. SUNny DAY.

in a week i wouldn’t be here anymore! haven’t had much time to myself in the past week because of parties (yeah, exams isn’t even over yet) and im doing an intensive French course that ends on Tuesday with a test. then another test on Thursday and i’ll be gone..for about four weeks.

SKIMMED

curious as to what got nominated in this year’s Oscars which is happening in a few hours‽ only watched The Incredibles 2 so im rooting for that

 

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there’s a Chrome extension that would help you learn a new foreign language

surprised to see the Malaysian flag on the list of countries where college is free. haha. i didnt know that. because it doesn’t tell the full story. anyway, why is college in the USA so expensive??‽!!!!!! [comic]

i might write “The Shameless Cowboy’s Runaway Wife”, a romance novel

Saturday. Aachen. Windy af

oh ive been in my room for more than 24 hours now; it’s so windy since last night, i could hear my door shaking. also, im trying to learn as much programming as i can for an upcoming test on Wednesday. im so done with studying so im winding down with some interesting-looking articles (also drank a beer). i think i haven’t spoken a word in the past 24 hours too haha. cool.

SKIMMED

YouTube channels to learn new skills

films to watch when you’re alone on Valentine’s Day. none of the title sounds interesting to me lol

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wow the woman figure skating Winter Olympic champion apparently didn’t drink water during the Olympics to maintain weight???? PS: i was rooting for her teammate, pffft