i spent day nine in a pretty lethargic state throughout the day…
i had a university project meeting in the afternoon. i was still stuck with a thermodynamics problem. at night i rewarded myself for being a lazy twat to chicken rice, after a week of vegetarian meals.
a swab test is done on the 10th day of quarantine and there was a knock at about 7:30am and i thought i was late for it! but no…it was just breakfast. nevertheless i popped out of bed and had breakfast and did some studying, mixed with Netflix here and there. im watching Cuckoo and it’s actually weirdly hilarious and hilariously weird.
was summoned at about 11:30am to do the PCR test and i waited at the hallway for a few moments before i was joined by another 6 quarantine buddies and together with the POC we took the lift. though it was really short, it felt great to be able to put on shoes and see some people! after they verified my payment status, i had to go to another section to get my nostril pricked. it was different from the one that i did in Germany, the nurse or whoever she is kept going deeper and deeper into my right nostril then she kept saying “sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry…” as i was like: *cough* *cough cough* *cough cough cough* *COUGH* and my right eye was tearing up. however at the end of the ordeal i still assured her, while half-coughing and with tears, that “it’s okay.”
this in total took about 20 minutes, from when i was first called to being back in my quarantine space again. i also saw two guys, with whom i briefly chatted with when we arrived 10 days ago; we locked eyes and nodded and waved, without even a squeak. pretty weird how it was as if we thought that we weren’t allowed to speak.
today the registration for the AstraZeneca vaccination opens to younger people at states with the highest cases (mine). i am gonna get mine in Germany so i was helping a friend but the website pretty much jammed. and then i tried refreshing it and it wouldn’t even bring me to the registration page anymore. since i was really free, i pretty much stalked the Malaysians that i follow on Insta to see that everyone had the same problem ahahahhahaa. there are so many jokes on Twitter about it so my day was made. someone also called it AstraJenaka, “jenaka” meaning “joke” in Malaysian hahahahaha. which is why i spent quite some time on Twitter and Instagram today, witnessing how everyone is dissing the Malaysian government. i took a nap too.
i have a little games night with some friends later, this time with people in the same timezone. quite looking forward to it since i haven’t spoken to them for a long time too.
i just realised that i miss eating warm, or even, hot food. temperature-wise. today is a holiday in Germany, as such i act like im on holiday too. the Ministry of Health gave me more antihistamines to treat my allergies.
supposed to have a meeting with my university project group but only two of us showed(out of four) and we haven’t talked in a long time (3 weeks; which is pretty long for close friends eh!!!) so we ended up catching up but i did manage to do some literature reading after that.
i just realised that i forgot to snap the breakfast and lunch today lollllll, but for breakfast: bread, butter/jam, soy milk, baked beans, hash brown. lunch: pasta with vegetables and salad. they were pretty good.
at night i called a friend i haven’t spoken to for a longggg time. happy day!
my first weekend back was spent mainly chilling, trying to solve problems in homeworks, and video calls. i missed EuroVision 2021. oh and the Ministry of Health Malaysia stood me up. i ought to write journal entries directly on the day itself…
writing this on day 8, i don’t even remember what time i woke up. i had a semi-professional and mostly casual meeting in the evening. and a Spielabend (“games evening”) which started around 11pm Malaysian time, joined by some friends at 5pm German time, what an evening. the hotel WiFi crashed around midnight so that was the cue to sleep. we played DrawPhone, Love Letter, and Geotastic. some highlights:
i woke up in the morning and had breakfast then continued sleeping and i spent some time chilling before spending a few unfocused hours doing homework. then another mostly professional and semi-casual meeting. it was the one year anniversary with my partner so we video-called while having a meal “together,” the time difference means that one of us was having dinner whereas the other lunch, haha. i discussed about homework with my group mate and was legit tired after that due to all the (virtual) socialising and went to bed.
finally remembered to check the Netflix charts and Fifty Shades has slipped to the 8th spot.
i basically had very horrible sleep because of…well i have a few theories. one, im having very horrible skin issues, it itches like crazy and even the meds don’t help fml. two, i was watching Dix Pour Cent on Netflix and i just really wanted to finish it, so i did, in five days, all four seasons with 6 eps each, each episodes averaging a 55 minutes, so i spent at least a whole day in my past five days here watching this series, insane!!!! on top of that i spent at least an hour on Brooklyn 99 too…now you know what happens in quarantine…
i slept a total of 4.5 hours, broken into a 2 hour sleep and 2.5 hour nap, to me, nap is what happens during the day after you officially woke up.
i now no longer remember what i did but it was a holiday in Germany so i was really glad that there were no classes (not like i attend them anyway). i only remember feeling like a zombie the entire day. had to do a homework which has to be turned in on fridays by 8 am GERMAN time, which is 2pm MALAYSIAN time ahahahha so i gave up trying, because i was a zombie. zombies don’t have brains, right? or do they eat brains? i have no idea.
oh i also finished reading a very fascinating book about true crime. i spent some time reading up on some of the crimes mentioned too.
the Ministry of Health stood me up!!!! they were supposed to come!!! they told me that!!! i was on standby mode the entire day for nothing!!!!
my 13L of water supply was drying up pretty quickly so i requested for more water and got 12L delivered. according to my calculations, this wouldn’t last me till the end of the quarantine but if they sent me another box, i would be left with too much water…
attended a tutorial hosted by a good friend and at night a meeting for the university project. slightly more productive day but the most productive part is finishing Dix Pour Cent vroom vroom.
i think it might be better if i wrote separate posts for every day…
i slept pretty late (Netflix) last night and woke up about 6 hours later so that’s good news(though i sleeptexted my partner at 4am that i have no recollection of)! however i felt pretty tired throughout the day and also had lesser appetite today…hmm.
tried to study but brain isn’t working that well. i started something i call #Quamics on Instagram which is short for “quarantine comics”, though the only stuff that i draw are speech bubbles. i have an online class in about an hour and doubt that i’d have energy to write later. there is an online open-book test for this subject tomorrow and the hotel graciously agreed to print my notes for me!
very satisfied with the vegetarian meals!! but it could be due to MSG lol…ive consumed over 2L of water today. that’s pretty convincing evidence. (for people unfamiliar with MSG: yes, things taste much better but it also makes you very thirsty and in some accounts, more prone to death*)
my best friend in Aachen has called me 4 times today for completely random reasons ahahahaha. i also did a little workout and nap. also already showered twice to “clean my wound.”
powerpoints in Malaysia are the same as in the UK, 3-pin plugs with a switch. i thought i was charging my phone just now to realise afterwards that i forgot to switch it on…urgk…and i always forget to switch it off!! whatt!!
i decided to post daily updates on where Fifty Shades of Grey stands on the charts on Netflix Malaysia. our beloved homeland was the only country in the world who banned the movie when it was released years ago. yesterday it was no3, today it slipped! to the fourth place. [when i came back 1.5 years ago it was no1 for almost the entirety of my stay] ive never watched the whole thing before.
*i absolutely have nothing to back this statement but that’s my belief. i will respect you in whatever you believe in too, but not when you are so obviously wrong
wow i haven’t written in ages, so what better to do when stuck in quarantine?? well actually there is a myriad of other less tedious options than keeping an online diary…
due to a mandatory 14day quarantine, im currently temporarily residing in a hotel at Kuala Lumpur, among multiple skyscrapers. if i make a little effort by turning my neck an awful lot of degrees, i can faintly see the world’s tallest twin towers, both of them even! i should take a picture during the day when the weather is good.
let’s see if i can update this daily.
i decided to start this just because…i need more content on the blog hahaha. i actually arrived yesterday at around 5pm but today is the first official day. i slept at about 10pm and was confident that i would not suffer jetlag until i woke up at about 1:20am and i was like: f***. then i slept and woke up again at 2:32am and i was really like: f***ing hell. and i tried to sleep again until breakfast was served at around 8am, at which point i gave up trying. i was reading a little of two books, texting friends in Germany, who are 6 hours behind me, made an Instagram Reel, even called a friend…to still be awake.
i spent quite a lot of time on social media today but i did manage to study a little. i spent about 4 hours to place my order at the only approved supermarket by the quarantine station and at the time of writing, my soft drinks and snacks aren’t there yet!!!! and we are only allowed one external order per day!!! dammit that means i wouldn’t be able to order anything tomorrow and i was planning to order either chicken rice or bubble tea (yes, this is a very important issue in quarantine that requires delicate planning). [Update: my order came!! they are pictured below.]
after lunch i felt that my brain is shutting down so i went to lie on the bed…to wake up almost 4 hours later and i missed an online meeting for a university project…urgk. but i attended the second one(yes, we have two meetings in one day and a total of three in a week).
i requested for an extra towel and got three, well im not sure what i wanna do with the extra two now since i only need one towel to be a makeshift exercise mat….maybe i should just be more hygienic and change towels after a few days. i don’t even know how often should a person change its towel…okay maybe that’s why i have skin problems sometimes…another mystery solved and it’s just the first day!
Netflix Malaysia is honestly so much better than Netflix Germany but i suspect that it’s due to the strict German copyrights law and whatever. well sometimes it benefits the society when you care less. i found Dix Pour Cent, Attack on Titans, the 7th season of Brooklyn 99 (the 6th was just released in Germany a few months ago, and it was available on flight and i was so elated i lost sleep because i thought i wouldn’t be able to watch it for a long time and lo and behold, i have 2 weeks of quarantine to watch all seven seasons), Happiest Season (this is only available for purchase in Germany!! and i paid the price) …..ahhhhhhhhhh amazing!
i was wondering if i have 4hour sleep cycles now because i slept at around 12:30am and woke up at about 4:30am feeling very itchy…so i took a long hot shower (not good for the skin but oh it feels so good, and also i don’t have to care about electricity costs here).
then i actually studied a little and after a while i had a headache but it took me till about 8am to fall asleep again. around 09:12 came a few knocks and i ignored it, thinking it was just food that was delivered. but noooooo, it was two nurses in full PPE suit coming to treat my wound! i felt the same as in German medical care because i struggled to find words in Malaysian…so they had to remove the crust that has formed on my elbow due to pus due to infection (?) im actually not sure. the ordeal (for them, because it’s hard as hell to use the plastic tweezers) took about 35 minutes with the both of them working simultaneously, which wasn’t that bad considering their estimation of two hours xD they practically yelped whenever a huge piece came out at once and when it was over. i just tried to entertain them with my broken Malaysian.
and then i had breakfast. studied a little. read a little. then lunch and took a 2 hour nap in the afternoon (pretty odd how i felt so lethargic at that time, same as yesterday; i hope this wouldn’t persist). then i opened a dressing kit to treat my wound but then apparently i was supposed to do them on Thursday…oops…wasted…
i had to send another reminder about vegetarian meals and although they double confirmed with me that i would be having Outside Food for dinner, they still sent me a meal (my first vegetarian meal here) so i ate 1.5 dinners today. also i requested for new trash bags and they also delivered 4 biohazard bags, on top of the one that we receive daily…like…what are we supposed to put in it…i think if you chopped me up i’d fit into only two….
also coded a very basic magic-8 program in Python:
where is part 1 you ask? well who needs that when you can right away get part 2.
this is my first time typing with one hand (left) and on a tablet and in the hospital.
an anaesthesia doctor is currently talking to the 92 year old “roommate” of mine of a night. im leaving in a few hours and she’s having another operation.
im discharged and at home alone as i continue writing. i can also type with my right hand now though less efficient so the left hand is dominating. my total duration of stay at the hospital amounted to less than 24 hours. a friend accompanied me to another friend’s car. it was raining and i coudn’t properly wear my winter jacket
TIMELINE (vaguely as i remember it)
13:20 arrived at the hospital and then “checked-in” to my room. this procedure is different than the last time, presumably due to corona
15:00 my friend left
16:28 i was pushed out of the room; had to leave my phone, glasses and everything in the room
16:35 arrived at the observation room. a doctor there seemed confused and said that he had no idea. lollllll. i was left there alone with my thoughts but i could see the clock. a lot of people in scrubs passed by me, some looked over me, some completely ignored me, some left with bags. at one point i thought everyone’s leaving so i asked the Had-No-Idea doctor if the surgery was still on. he said yes of course
17:20ish a female doctor who just pushed a patient bed in introduced herself as the anaesthesia doctor and that she would be with me shortly
around 17:30 i had to slide to the “table”, i didn’t know that’s what they call the “bed” that patients are on while being operated. for safety reasons a belt was secured around my knee area. this reminded me a little of the execution chair that they use in America to administer the lethal injection. the anesthesia doctor cheerfully told me that i made a great decision with the partial anaethesia; i would be awake the entire time but she could chat with me
17:35 finally at the operation theatre! i think i saw a total of 10 or more different medical personnel. the anaesthesic team realise that they would have to call in an “expert” cos they would have to turn my entire arm numb ( i think they thought it was just the lower arm)
i no longer could see a clock so ive no idea now
they set up tables or something like that for me to stretch both my arms on each side. now this REALLY reminded of the execution chair cos they were also poking on both ends. the cheerful-anaesthesia-doctor tried to distract me as her newbie assistant tried to insert a needle on my left hand. also worth mentioning is that, at this point i have been fasting, not even having a drop of water, for about 18 hours now. i guess my veins were not very visible. well it hurt like hell as the cheerful doctor was distracting me by making small talk. i said i learnt German in Freiburg and she replied with “ich lieeeeeeeeebe Freiburg!” followed by me squirming in pain. then she took over and finally the easy part is over. this entire time, a motherlike-doctor was cupping my face, this doctor would hold my hand for a few times. seriously, very motherlike. i ended up with three holes on my left hand
next, the expert-anaesthesia doctor was there and he guided the cheerful-doctor using a device that allowed them to see the capillaries and shits like that in my body. another doctor/nurse was beside on standby to release the anaesthesic liquids and i could feel my muscle contract and that caused me to jerk. (i think people being executed sense something similar but much stronger and it happens all over their body) they repeated the process a few times and at another location then it was time to wait for it to work
later, two doctors rubbed my entire right arm in red alcohol. (i was already asleep during the last surgery so it was eye-opening to see them doing it live). some doctors made sure i was warm enough and securely strapped on the table (including the motherlike doctor, of ourse). after that, they told me that they will build a “tent” to maintain a sterilised environment during the surgery. in this “tent” lied only my right arm. i could not see a thing so i was a little disappointed cos i honestly thought that i would be able to watch them doing the surgery.
after all of this was done, they started the protocol, like calling a meeting (something i missed the last time too). very interesting.
finally, it was time to test the anaesthesia. someone pinched me and asked if i felt that. yes. it hurt a lot. and then they were like: “hmm should we have a full anaesthesia?” then the anaesthesia team suggested that we all wait for another five minutes. but like 30 seconds later they directly cut on my skin which hurt so much my entire body jumped forward (now i know what the safety belt is for) and the surgery team called out: “nope it’s not working.” the reply was “well we said to wait for 5 minutes, not 30 seconds, if you can’t wait, then let’s just do the full anaesthesia.”
after getting my approval, i was then unconscious and they did their thing. i think it might be 18:30 when they finally started.
20:20 i was awake as they pushed me into the observation room. they mentioned that i regained some consciousness as they were sewing the wound. i was in pain so they gave me liquid painkillers. i also noticed that my right arm was numb so that proved that the partial anesthesia could’ve sufficed.
a nurse was tending to me and asked me where im from. then she said that she was there before too. i showed her my tattoo. at this point i was kinda groggy and upset cos they didn’t save the metal plate that they removed. at one point she told me that it was already 21:15 and i remember thinking: wow time flies down here.
finally got back to my room at around 21:30 and got my phone and informed my dad, my partner, and some friends. then Instagram.
as i could walk (something that i couldn’t do well the last time), i even used the toilet without help. but i needed help because i was on my period….ugkkk so much blood loss. i felt like throwing up and they told me it’s because of the anaesthesia; i practically had too much of it. i requested food though they dripped glucose into me before this. and i ate it at about 11pm, with the help of a nurse smearing margarine and jam on two slices of bread. the hospital doesn’t serve vegan meals and it came with a yoghurt. i happily ate the plain yoghurt cos i haven’t had dairy products for about two weeks now (it’s not a very long time but still). this morning i had cheese and quark for breakfast hahahahaha. what is Veganuary hahahahaha
the lady beside me couldn’t sleep and we made some small talk and tried to sleep. i was awake once at around 3am. then again at 5am because a nurse came in who barked “junge Frau! haben Sie nach der OP Pipi gemacht?” (young lady! have you urinated after your surgery?) then again at about 7am cos they were doing their rounds.
a 10-doctor team came to greet us (my roommate and me). their first words to me were “you have extremely hard bones hmm. i heard that they struggled a lot to try to remove everything.” to which i replied: “well that’s great to know, so it wouldn’t break again.”
a doctor came and removed my bandage and by 11:10am i was ready to go home.
i said goodbye to the lady who was born in 1928.
11:48 im home
currently, the only movement deficit that i experience is my right thumb. i cannot maneuver it to do a thumbs-up but they think it’s because of the anaesthesia. we’ll see tomorrow if it gets better. i have a vague feeling of wanting to vomit.
they only removed maybe 20% or less than what used to be in there. screws were broken in an attempt to haul them out. the surgery took longer than expected.
my doctor in Malaysia was right, he told me that the metal things should be removed within a year of installation…it’s been almost 21 months. the doctors here in Germany claimed that it wasn’t healed yet last year when i went.