should spend more time on and with myself
For when you are sad because of this emotion called LOVE
That part of my heart that belongs to you might shrink in the future; but it will always be there.
In life, you’ll have love stories. Most of them would be sad stories, but you only need one happy story. I used to think that we could be a happy love story.
Humans and heartbreaks, a package; Sometimes we, be gladly damaged.
I’m not sure why is my body still intact when I feel that I’ve broken into a million pieces.
It’s not easy. But darling, I could never rescue you.
The piercing silence accentuates my loneliness.
The longest distance might be me caring about you but not daring to let you know.
Just thinking of you again. How are you?
Oh a heartbreak, I don’t need this reminder that I can love.
It hurts that, then, it would be as if we’ve never met each other.
Have you ever felt so hurt that you had to physically rub your heart to relieve the pain? I have.
- I just wish that I walked deeper into your heart, as deep as where you walked into mine.
This post is updated as often as the author feels sad too and manages to string together words to convey her feelings. So yeah, I didn’t copy any of these from nowhere (I meant “somewhere”) and if there were similarities with something you’ve read, it must be coincidental. I bloody swear.
UPDATE: the author didn’t know it was possible; but she realised that it is possible to no longer feel some of the things mentioned before and so she deems it fit to remove quotes that are no longer relatable to herself. Maybe one day there wouldn’t be a quote left. That would be a happy ending. Yeah, the happy ending is a blank post.
i have an exam tomorrow and it’s my first one since forever. im doing a subject that could be loosely translated to “Measurement Technology” where we basically study about measuring things. it’s a huge pain in the ass but is pretty doable even with my meagre German because we are allowed to bring in a cheat sheet. i might still fuck things up but hey, it might be a great welcome/warm up back to the academics life. im pretty tired so i thought of doing some light reading before heading to bed early tonight. having marijuana tea (no THC content though) to calm myself down; definitely enjoying the night
so some DNA tests wrecked havoc in a family. i would do a test like that to know more about my ancestry back in China but i guess it’s a little hard for now as these technologies aren’t as well-developed and things may not be as extensively recorded in Asia???
a friend passed away suddenly. we learnt German together and haven’t seen each other for over a year but we would’ve met again next year but nope, never again. i don’t think my brain completely comprehended it.
ive been in Europe for two weeks now and it was really exhausting. currently on my last day of my official vacation with my brother. classes start next week, hopefully i could still make time to read and update this blog
it’s actually just 41 minutes into Tuesday as i started this. i’m watching Paramore tonight!! so excited!!!!
originally published on a blog i tried to keep and with a few minor edits
We met last week in school, you were training to use laser guns and you accidentally shot one of my ears off. It grew back, no worries.
I…have a confession to make.
Even with my cuboid dysfunctional brain, I could conclude that, I love you.
Your eyes, one at the front, one at the back, one on the left, another on the right, are so perfectly placed I fell in love with it.
Your nose, so tiny and barely visible yet I could see it through my magnifiable vision. It is cute, I would like to pinch it (sadly, I was born with claws and don’t worry I will not hurt you with it).
Your ears, so beautiful. I remember seeing it in the Earthling Biological Science textbook, you have ears like the Earth creature called, voila, elephant. It is so beautiful.
Your mouth, perfectly round yet so cute. I would like to kiss that very much, I truthfully wish that you would give me the chance to do so even if my lips are a perfect square.
I love your everything.
Your smile, although your lips are still a circle when you smile, but I can tell it when you smile, I swear. It is always heartmelting.
Your attitude, hot and cold, polite and rude; you are always different at times. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t mean that you have disociative identity disorder or that you’re bipolar. I just love the way you are.
Your skin color, pink and green checkered boxes, matches my turquoise and orange stripes. See, we were bornt to be together.
You’re running around in my head and taking my precious time; I think of you everyday, every minute, every second, every millisecond, every nanosecond, even every picosecond.
The way you walk, so graceful, leaving a slippery trail and the sweet smell of you. I just don’t understand why do other people hate that smell and slime. I just know that I love you.
I promise you, I would make you the happiest being in the Universe.
I would hold you until whenever.
I would never let go
I would love you.
Even with my cuboid dysfunctional and lovedrunk brain, I could conclude that, I love you.
Would you consider giving me a chance, pretty pretty please?