because the temperature will take a dip again starting tomorrow, not a huge dip though thankfully. i think i fixed my sleep. have been having very severe and groundless insomnia in the past two weeks. im ready to be human again. i ought to be studying. i OUGHT to.
uni doesn’t start till wednesday. ahhhh greattttt. having to make phone calls due to my relocation.
the majority would call the year a rather eventful year; albeit it referring generally to the world and not to individual lives.
i can imagine that a lot of people had a rather flat slope (is that an oxymoron?) when it comes to the dramaticness of their lives in year 2020. im not trying to insult these people — as i have learnt, having a rather uneventful life is sometimes a better way to live — since the only good thing about people like me who are always chasing the adrenaline is, really, just to have anecdotes to tell at a (virtual) social gathering. other than that, sure, there may be some prestiges; yet normally it is cancelled out with negative events. i don’t speak for everyone but at least that is my experience.
i wouldn’t hesitate to do everything again though. though i might do some things better.
this is by no means a review of the year since some of the epiphanies aren’t that “wild”. posting this slightly earlier as im moving in two days. there shall be nothing to add to this list in that window.
- tasked to head a research at work that could be written into a master’s thesis…and i wasn’t even very near to writing my bachelor’s thesis
- sharply refined my definition of “friendship”
- being active in the Teenage Bounty Hunters fandom #Stepril
- didn’t step foot in my homeland at all
- saved more than 5 times on electricity bills just by showering less (i owed my electricity provider almost 1500€ in a 9 and a half months timeframe)
- decided to ditch social engagements in the form of student associations
- kinda achieved the little financial freedom to even be able to donate to charities
- i think i kinda can cook now‽
- actually made a Christmas cover and video with talented friends and my mediocre skills in everything under a week
- played my top song of the year 556 times this year, it’s Deleter by Grouplove
- got into a pretty much long-distance relationship
- went mostly vegetarian; attempting a more vegan diet now
- i played badminton without hurting myself
i was speaking with a friend last night, on Discord, which is one of the most interesting discoveries i had this year, they asked me how do i perceive 2020. then i realised that it was an okayish good year for me. sure there were still some dramas but the goodnesses outweighs it all.
so im happy to report that:
2020, sorry, you didn’t get me.
not a very productive day but kinda happy so yay
- First impressions don’t really matter. Think about this: once you made a good impression; either by dressing up or acting like you normally wouldn’t, you’re gonna struggle a lot to preserve that image of you.
- Don’t expect people to treat you the same way as you treat them.
- You will meet new humans and you might have less time for the old ones, but keep in touch not just by seeing each other on social medias; initiate personal contact with them.
- People grow apart. According to Dunbar’s number, which is 150, that’s the average number of stable social relationships we can handle at one time. That means that, as you move on to next chapters in your life, the people in your direct vicinity change too and the names on the list of 150 change. Some names would be removed and replaced by new names. And that’s okay.
- People are generally nice and friendly, even if there is a language barrier.
- “It doesn’t degrade you when others treat you poorly; it degrades them.” – Ryan Holiday
- Knowing just a few words/phrases in someone’s native language can easily make someone’s day. However, do not know too many or else it might convey the impression that you actually speak the language, which of course makes someone’s day even more, but then you’d have to put on a poker face because you absolutely understood nothing when they spoke more and that someone’s day would then be a teeny bit ruined.
- It’s possible to love platonically.
- It’s easier to make new friends when you’re alone…even easier if your new friend was also alone. Loners attract. That’s kwy’s Friendship Law.
- Despite the amount of friends I have (ya i admit that i’m quite sociable) I think it’s very important to be able to be alone, being the company of yourself. Though I have failed to execute this well at the time of finishing the draft.
- Do not text someone you care when you’re in the company of someone else you care. Two things here; you should respect the company; and because you might not be focusing completely on both parties, you might sound rude
- Trust your intuitions about someone you just met. Bad vibes always turns out to be true in some way. Protect yourself.
- You really only need a few friends that truly care about you and support you. Quality > quantity.
- When asking for advice: people will impose their reality on you and tell you stuff based on very different mindsets. So only ask for advice from people with whom you’d trade places with.
- Never take advantage of your friends in any regard. Or make them feel taken advantage of.
- Everyone has boundaries that might be very different from yours; physically, emotionally, mentally.
- Dropping someone off will always be hard, no matter how much that someone has wronged you.
- Envy shouldn’t exist in a friendship; you should be genuinely happy for a your friends’ achievements.
oh ive been in my room for more than 24 hours now; it’s so windy since last night, i could hear my door shaking. also, im trying to learn as much programming as i can for an upcoming test on Wednesday. im so done with studying so im winding down with some interesting-looking articles (also drank a beer). i think i haven’t spoken a word in the past 24 hours too haha. cool.
i have an exam on friday and i haven’t written an official exam in about 28 months…also, it’s the second day of Chinese New Year but that doesn’t apply to me this year and my sprained left foot hasn’t healed 100% yet and it still hurts a little at times. yesterday my right heel started bleeding. so yeah, i have a very awkward gait now. i love my life.
definitely suffering a burnout from long study sessions, i feel like my days are melting together and i just cannot anymore. i hope that i’d learn from this and start studying earlier in the next semester