anyone else ever woke up that way? not that you wake up thinking you are ugly, but that you actually look worse in the mirror. so this has been me the whole week because there is a pimple above the left corner of my lip. honestly, i feel like all the pimples that should have surfaced during my teenage years are just showing up, especially in the last 2-3 months. zzz. maybe it also doesn’t help that i keep scratching it off.

this morning, i woke up with a bungalow on my forehead. i don’t know if it’s a chinese or malaysian reference but it means that there is a huge effing bump. what the fucketty is that swollen fuck?? i have no idea but there are some on my left arm and legs too. the theory is something bit me but what? it’s cold now in germany, why aren’t the insects dead yet? i sent ugly selfies to everyone i met yesterday in different parts of the city and people in my apartment… to find out that i am the sole victim. is this an allergic reaction? most of my friends asked me if i hit myself (while drunk). no, even i will not subject myself to such pain that would leave a noticeable trace. is my brain too big now for my head? or is my brain having an erection? what is this. just as my immune system is stronger now (i got a supplement) and almost fighting off the last illness, my skin is rotting.

anyway, it’s not like i wake up looking amazing on other days, but at least i appreciate my face a bit more without these strange marks. please go away. alright i’m done ranting and hope that i look more normal again in a few days.