“It’s my birthday”

At the supermarket yesterday, while we were loading the things to the belt, the cashier was just looking at us and not scanning any of the products and smiling weirdly, then i realised that alcohol was the first thing in line so i quickly went over and said:
 
“oh hi do you need to see my ID? Here is my passport” (yes i am well prepared)
 
and she’s like: (while smiling tenderly)
 
“it’s fine, these aren’t liquors and you are allowed to buy these when you’re 16 and i think you look older than 16 but liquors are allowed when you are 18
*and then she saw that there was indeed liquor behind*
*so she paused and studied my face again*
hmm okay…errrr..i guess you are 20?? so that’s also okay, you can purchase them”
 
Then I said: “er well it’s my birthday today and i’m actually 22 now”
 
She: “AHHH THEN THAT IS COMPLETELY FINE!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND HAVE FUN!!!!”



I bumped into a friend on the street.

Me: HIIII HAPPY NEW YEAR!
She: ohhh happy new year to you too!!!…and merry christmas!
Me: haha thank you! It’s my birthday too today.
She: ahhhh and happy birthday then!
That’s how you kill three birds with one stone.


The question is: is it weird going around to say that??

Anyway, I don’t know about you, but I’m feeling 22!!!!!



Is this British enough?

So this happened:

BACK STORY: While I was abroad in Europe last year, I befriended a British who introduced me to this tea-drinking business. Ever since, I drink black tea with milk and I take it so seriously that I’d sulk a lot when tea tasted bad (normally happens at cafes).

And my tiny heart got very excited so I responded rather appropriately with:

More questions ensued:

Then an invitation, like a real Brit:

TEA TIME!!!

reasons to not like kwy (a non-exhaustive list)

  1. I assume everyone knows who “kwy” is.
  2. I can and sometimes will disagree on everything you agree on.
  3. I think I am talented.
  4. I’m lazy.
  5. I’m obsessed with things that could be deemed inappropriate. (ie: serial killers, the number “8”,
  6. If I’m in love with you or think that I am, I’ll confess my feelings even if I knew it might ruin the friendship.
  7. I write bad poetry (if they’re even considered as poetry) when I’m feeling like a shit.
  8. I really hate conforming to society.
  9. I always assume that I’m better at something than I actually am, for example: cooking and singing.
  10. I don’t get social cues well.
  11. I make jokes at the most wrong of times with the most sensitive of topics.
  12. I voice my opinions out, sometimes too loudly.
  13. My accent.
  14. I talk too much.
  15. I pretend that I know a lot of things.
  16. I probably don’t hold the people you hold in high regard in high regard.
  17. I spell it as “stuffs” though I know that it’s wrong.
  18. Hey I just met you, and this is crazy, but let me pretend we’re BFFs alright‽
  19. When I’m not drunk but I am but I am not but wait what I don’t get it. But I’m sober.
  20. I pretend to be a badass but actually have no balls to do a lot of things.
  21. I don’t find dogs cute (come fight me) (oh wait please don’t), I don’t find animals cute in general, except for the occasional human beings.
  22. I’d remember your birthday for sure, but I will not get you a present.
  23. I don’t use facial products at all.
  24. My ego.
  25. I underdress all the time.
  26. My recklessness.
  27. I don’t get the hype of a lot of “trendy” and “popular” things and I’m fine with it.
  28. The music I listen to.
  29. My inability to organise physical spaces.
  30. I probably don’t acknowledge your existence on Earth until I need a favour from you.
  31. I think it is okay to eat alone, to watch movies alone, to travel alone; to do everything alone

What I’ve Done in the past 8 months or so : a Report

It’s been 259 days since I came home from almost a year of being more than 10000km away, submerged in a completely different climate, culture, and language.

I was asked multiple times since: “Are you working or studying?”

I answered: “Neither.”

So from the persona I portray on social medias, people assume that I’m doing nothing, aka wasting my time and squandering my dad’s money (uh yes, I’m kinda a spoiled brat) and just having fun. Some people also thought that I stopped studying to travel (that’s a great idea actually except my wanderlust isn’t that big).

Well, I’m not trying to prove you wrong but I’m gonna remind myself about what I’ve actually done; this is a self-reflection and welcome to part of my world.


I met up with friends. Catching up is good, realising the distance between some of them and me is not. It’s sad but I’ve also started some friends as toxic though they have done nothing bad to me.

I learnt to be alone.

I have visited four Malaysian cities: Penang, Kampar, Ipoh, Malacca; and four countries: Australia, Japan, China, Hong Kong. I wasn’t home for approximately 43 days. Don’t ask me for my favourite city/country.

I met some very cool and nice people from everywhere in the world, and managed to engage in deep conversations with several of them. In contrast, there are Malaysians with whom I could not get over an exchange of formalities, even if we’ve known each other for ages.

I am trying to run a business to help people save time deciding what to wear, and mostly am broke because of this. It’s not really working because I made it hard to even decide what to buy. Well, I gotta learn. And I’m getting help. So wish me luck. And also please like the page on Facebook and follow it on Instagram, that would be much much much appreciated and thanks in advance! Oh yeah, my friends get a special discount code; ask and you shall receive.

I read 26 books (and actively reading two books) and also a bunch of articles. Mostly about philosophy and business, stuff completely unrelated to what I would be studying because why not.

I kinda learnt to read Hiragana and Katakana, two of the Japanese scripts. I’m determined to learn the language but…nah…I’m lazy. The same thing happened with French although with French, the pronunciation is still screwing me up.

I sent way too many postcards and festival cards that I think I can write a pretty accurate review of postal services of the countries I’ve been to. I definitely have enough knowledge of the postal products to work at a Malaysian post office.

I missed seven birthday bashes and am about to miss an eighth one…I am forever sorry.

I was briefly obsessed with rhythmic gymnastics and spent four full days camping at the stadium and then randomly getting an invitation to attend the gala dinner. Oh it was fun and disastrous.

I got a tattoo.

I spent a lot of time with my dad and my grandmother, and I think that’s something I will cherish in the future. My brother? He doesn’t want to spend time with me. But he said that he would buy me a PS4 controller and a game I want so I can play. Yay.

I started going to mental health therapy. I’m still not comfortable to disclose the details openly but I might tell you about it privately.

I watched a lot of films and TV and I also read about good films and good TV so I know what a good motion picture should be like but unfortunately most of what is on a screen is crap.

I somehow still manage to German. I’m super glad that I met (a lot of) Germans in Australia.

I gained a better appreciation for art, whether in the form of words, audios, visuals, and whatever.

I lost about 5kg. I’m not entirely sure how that happened and also I’m feeling more positive about my body image. Also, never ever call someone fat, you don’t know the full story.

I got an invitation to do the entrance exam at my dream university in Switzerland but ultimately had to decline it because…I don’t want to say. The university was the main reason why I acquired the German language. It’s a tough decision emotionally to let go of this dream, but oh, #life.

I learnt to make peace with the fact that, no matter how close two persons were; either platonically or romantically; things can change and it only requires the decisions of one side to make that change and unfortunately I am most of the time on the receiving end.

I kept in touch (or tried to keep in touch) with friends who are in about eight different time zones. The worst difference I’ve ever experienced was 17 hours…damn. Time zone differences is very weird but the best thing is always having someone to talk to no matter what time it is. It’s also amazing how I talk more to some friends who are hundreds of nautical miles away than some friends who stay a few minutes away in the same city.

I befriended a person who shares the same surname as me! She’s the first person I know with that surname who isn’t family (our surname, 管 , is very rare). How cool right!!!

I cold-emailed and cold-tweeted at people I find interesting, normally with no response, so I might be better at dealing at rejections now, however…

I shared a very very brief correspondence with some people in Hollywood.

I was rejected by the school in Germany where I’ll be studying in and spent two weeks in Japan checking my email inbox every day for a reply from my appeal. 12 hours after landing home from Tokyo, I got accepted after making a 10 minutes phone call. I wish I could give credit to my persuading skills but the truth is, they misconverted my grades before.

I started this blog.


I could not be happier to say that I’m going to Germany next month to start the next chapter of my life; the past two years were definitely wonderful interludes.