instead here i am, lounging at a random cafe (supposedly doing productive work). my last few visits home, except for the emergency funeral visit, have all been for a duration of about 3.5 weeks. i have no idea why, i don’t go booking flights thinking “i want to stay there for 20+ days but not more than 28”. meetups have always been rushed but more chilled this time. i’m even getting used to driving. finally set up a payment method too and feel more like a local.

though i guess i do behave “weird” at times.

my top asked question recently: why are you going back for so long?

i’ve been leaning towards bullshitting my way out of tough questions lately. so,

possible answers:

• no classes to attend anymore
• Lunar New Year
• going on a reality show
• training for a reality show
• experiencing how it feels like to live here again

another FAQ is “what are you doing in life?” where the List of Bullshits runs longer.

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i’ve been enjoying my time generally… even if i’m overexerting my body physically again which means i’m sleepy all the time. which is bad cos i’m supposed to do some productive work. which means i should stop writing though this still lacks substance… like some conversations that i’ve been having.

we’ll see when the mental health crisis hits.