things have been moving at a slow pace in my life, especially since finding myself in juxtaposition with a fast-growing capital city in an Asian nation. obviously, i am not satisfied with many aspects of my life (but that doesn’t mean i can’t pretend to be happy on instagram) (fake it till you make it amirite).

nowadays, decembers are for retrospection, thanks to some popular apps’ fun data visualisation of our habits. i am once again embarrassed by my spotify wrapped… but i belong to Club Serotonin as a Leader if anyone wanna hmu. duolingo’s review makes me feel like a fraud cos how am i in the top 6% by literally doing the bare minimum? i wish the bar was so low in many other things. though, it’s the bare minimum every day, maybe consistency is really the key to world-class greatness. consistency is hard for me because i have trouble prioritising; for example, i am planning to participate in at least 3 typical existential crisis physical competitions in 2026… all of which require extensive training that i have not started. we’ll see if my body or my heart collapses first.

i used to want to be the hare in the race but now don’t mind being the tortoise. it’s better to chill out and stay alive. well, i am quite done with being stagnant in life so it’s about time to undergo some major changes (i hope) (i will try).

please give me some more time.