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Past entries, in reverse chronological order.
this is my fourth post in one week, which could only mean one thing: i feel like i'm in a state of everythingness. it's difficult to describe; not because i am suppressing anything (or am i?), but it's like in my brain there is a constant processing of things, and it keeps working in the [ ]
Read entry →after complaining for 20000 days that i am sick, and talking about going to my doctor for 10000 days —— i finally visited her. honestly, i had no idea what i was expecting since my symptoms are pretty mild; just chronic and annoying. i think i expected her to inject me with some immunity boosters [ ]
Read entry →今晚 这月明星稀的时候 我在想 每晚 这种静悄悄的时候 我的思绪是多么地噪杂 讽刺的是 想是安静的 有些东西是隐形的 看不见 听不见 对于其他人 它是不存在的 这些不是实体的东西 影响力非凡 艺术家尝试把这些不是东西的东西变成东西 而我们尝试给他们的艺术赋予意义和重要性 我在想 我也不想了 很晚了 我怎么还在想 别想了 需要想的事情还很多 睡吧
Read entry →anyone else ever woke up that way? not that you wake up thinking you are ugly, but that you actually look worse in the mirror. so this has been me the whole week because there is a pimple above the left corner of my lip. honestly, i feel like all the pimples that should have [ ]
Read entry →my health has been taking a dip again recently. coughing has been second nature to me for about a month now. two weeks ago, standing up straight felt like an olympic weightlifting event — my head being the weight. the worst of all was how i really felt like cutting off my nose, but then [ ]
Read entry →this sentence is slowly turning into a part of my core identity. it seems like there is a fine line between playful banter that are only to evoke chuckles and hurtful jokes that might strike a chord or two or more; a line that is quite blur to me despite me acquiring new glasses recently. [ ]
Read entry →schlecht geschlafen gewitter panne (but the dutch were very nice! 4 men) 3 + 4 trains + 1 scooter no time to eat 1/3 verpasst no transport to go home kein handy akku the above was my draft on July 8th, 2025 around 2 am, after having to travel for almost 9 hours to go [ ]
Read entry →in the past twelve months, i flew home thrice; the last time i went back before that was in January 2024. the difference is staggering: zero times in a span of 18 months, and then three times in 12 months. what changed? my uncle (ahkoo) and grandma (ahnei) died in that year and a half. [ ]
Read entry →part 9: day four FROM THE ARCHIVES: I was #5KJ♠︎, a dental nurse in Freiburg (im Breisgau), because there is another Freiburg in Switzerland. One of my friends met his partner online who is from Freiburg and when they finally wanted to meet in real life… he went to the wrong Freiburg. I followed the [ ]
Read entry →a service that i've been using for over a decade is shutting down. although, honestly i haven't been using it much in the past few years. however, in the first few years, i was always on the top 10% or sometimes top 5% reader list at the year-end review (yeah Pocket was cool before Spotify). [ ]
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