oh, you don't like me? same.
Past entries, in reverse chronological order.
there has been chatter over the past few days since an Anthropic (the company behind Claude) researcher quit and posted a thread on X, and the next day the decision-makers behind the biggest AIs — ChatGPT, Claude, Grok, DeepSeek, etc (do not correct me if i'm wrong, but basically the huge names) — agreed to [ ]
Read entry →i feel stuck, not knowing what’s the best course of action. which is breaking my brain because i’d like to think that i am good at planning ahead and rationally. i feel lost, not knowing where everything will lead to. while i am usually attuned to taking risks… i am now somewhere between being excited [ ]
Read entry →i’ve been losing things: sunglasses (not recovered), earphone case (dropped it somewhere probably) and card holder (remembered that i left it in a rental car right after i returned it). i’ve been forgetting keys i’ve been taking the wrong buses 😵💫
Read entry →hello Internet, do you know about the so-much-to-do-but-i-can-still-distract-myself paradox? i think some people call it procrastination. i think i have a reputation of being super random, having random ideas all the time… yeah i’m that person with a bunch of unfinished projects. have i given up on them? not all, some are still at the [ ]
Read entry →i know it sounds like someone said that to me when they feel i was overstepping. but no, no one has said that in my face. it just feels like i am going down different paths, simultaneously. i am not just an engineer/scientist (yes i think i can call myself a scientist xD) —— i [ ]
Read entry →i spent the last two days in the Cologne Exhibition Centre (koelnmesse) to go to FIBO, which stands for FItness BOdybuilding, which is the world's biggest fitness trade show/exhibition. the koelnmesse is a train stop that i've passed by on trains numerous times in the past many years in Germany, but i have never actually [ ]
Read entry →sort of paying tribute to Baek Sehee. a few years ago, i noticed a pattern in my life: since i was 16 (but it could also stretch back to 10 y/o), something big will happen in my life every three years, which would eventually affect me a lot and change me in some ways. age [ ]
Read entry →instead of obsessing over human beings, i have been obsessed with processes. neither is inherently healthy. (however, obsessing over people is usually free; though at the cost of something else) there is an ongoing quest to gauge my physical ceiling. now that i am back in europe with an obviously cooler climate, i was wondering [ ]
Read entry →maybe because you stop giving so many fucks maybe because you’re too tired to give a fuck maybe because you realised it’s impossible to be fair to everyone maybe because you think “being a good person” is overrated maybe you’re done pretending maybe you let your inner devil take over maybe it makes you happier [ ]
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