oh, you don't like me? same.
Past entries, in reverse chronological order.
i feel stuck, not knowing what’s the best course of action. which is breaking my brain because i’d like to think that i am good at planning ahead and rationally. i feel lost, not knowing where everything will lead to. while i am usually attuned to taking risks… i am now somewhere between being excited [ ]
Read entry →i’ve been losing things: sunglasses (not recovered), earphone case (dropped it somewhere probably) and card holder (remembered that i left it in a rental car right after i returned it). i’ve been forgetting keys i’ve been taking the wrong buses 😵💫
Read entry →hello Internet, do you know about the so-much-to-do-but-i-can-still-distract-myself paradox? i think some people call it procrastination. i think i have a reputation of being super random, having random ideas all the time… yeah i’m that person with a bunch of unfinished projects. have i given up on them? not all, some are still at the [ ]
Read entry →i know it sounds like someone said that to me when they feel i was overstepping. but no, no one has said that in my face. it just feels like i am going down different paths, simultaneously. i am not just an engineer/scientist (yes i think i can call myself a scientist xD) —— i [ ]
Read entry →i spent the last two days in the Cologne Exhibition Centre (koelnmesse) to go to FIBO, which stands for FItness BOdybuilding, which is the world's biggest fitness trade show/exhibition. the koelnmesse is a train stop that i've passed by on trains numerous times in the past many years in Germany, but i have never actually [ ]
Read entry →sort of paying tribute to Baek Sehee. a few years ago, i noticed a pattern in my life: since i was 16 (but it could also stretch back to 10 y/o), something big will happen in my life every three years, which would eventually affect me a lot and change me in some ways. age [ ]
Read entry →instead of obsessing over human beings, i have been obsessed with processes. neither is inherently healthy. (however, obsessing over people is usually free; though at the cost of something else) there is an ongoing quest to gauge my physical ceiling. now that i am back in europe with an obviously cooler climate, i was wondering [ ]
Read entry →maybe because you stop giving so many fucks maybe because you’re too tired to give a fuck maybe because you realised it’s impossible to be fair to everyone maybe because you think “being a good person” is overrated maybe you’re done pretending maybe you let your inner devil take over maybe it makes you happier [ ]
Read entry →something weird is going on with my body. i am definitely not sleeping enough yet i can’t fall asleep. i don’t think i’m exactly feeling anxious about anything… since i’m probably too sleep deprived and tired to actually feel it. sure, my caffeine intake is sometimes a bit higher but cmon, how much caffeine can [ ]
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